Hi guys. I just feel like I need to vent a little, so I'm sorry. Lately things have just sucked. I don't post enough here about my personal life for you guys to truly understand what I'm going through, but let me tell you, it's been really hard. I was at such a high place at the very start of my winter break, and within the same 24 hours I had crashed down to a really low and dark place. I didn't sleep at all for almost 2 days, and my eating habits changed rapidly. Unfortunately, for most of the winter break I stayed in this dark place. I put on a happy face and tried to keep fighting through it. But in reality, I just wanted to hide away from the world. It just seemed better that way. I'd lock myself in my room for hours at a time. The odd thing is that I wouldn't be doing anything special. I'd sometimes just lay there, and other times I'd put on something on netflix as a distraction. But it sucked. I was alone. Even when I was spending time with family and friends, I just felt empty and alone inside. So many times I just wanted to break down and cry, but being me, I didn't. It just really hurts. I want to be happy again, but I'm starting to feel like maybe that light I used to have may never really come back. Anyway, I need to get back to stressing over my physics test. Sorry if I brought any of you guys down. I really am sorry.
Love you guys<3
lovelovelove,
Melissa
Hi lovely, you are worth more than you know. you have heard of this a million times before but it is very VERY true. your FAMILY, FRIENDS, TEACHERS, & your God loves you more than you know. you may have days where you think no one would care if you were gone or no one would care if you were hurting. but that's isn't true. you know it. darling, you are such a beautiful, lovely, unique young women. you DONT have to do this alone. I am ALWAYS here.
Hi lovely,
ReplyDeleteyou are worth more than you know. you have heard of this a million times before but it is very VERY true. your FAMILY, FRIENDS, TEACHERS, & your God loves you more than you know. you may have days where you think no one would care if you were gone or no one would care if you were hurting. but that's isn't true. you know it. darling, you are such a beautiful, lovely, unique young women.
you DONT have to do this alone. I am ALWAYS here.