One of our Saturday fieldtrips was to Sacramento to watch a baseball team called the Rivercats play. I am not much of a baseball person, but getting to hang out with friends was pretty fun.
This was what the bus ride looked like on the way over there. People were telling jokes, playing games, and doing crafts. Of course I had to video tape a little bit of it.
We all entered the stadium, took a cluster photo, and then walked to the barbeque area for our dinner.
Here is COSMOS in the big tent with all the lines of food.
My plate of food. I served way to much and couldn't even finish, but it was good!
Janiqua with her plate waiting in line.
A plane flying above the stadium.
Unfortunately I didn't get photos of the in between times of the photo above and below. Us girls made friendship bracelets and talked boys the majority of the time. Erika and I at the beginning were bored, because we aren't really in to baseball. She almost was asleep when I freaked out because of the sight I saw on the field. There were walking heads!!!!!! We literally could not stop cracking up for 10 minutes. That moment really started a great relationship full of laughs and fun.
To end the fun night we got to watch a fireworks show that just happened to be right behind us. Unfortunately there were a bunch of trees so we only got the tops for the photos. It was overall a pretty fun night with a bunch of laughing about the walking heads, our interesting conversation, and that one random mob of asian people. Hahaha... oh good times.
lovelovelove,
Melissa
In UC Davis, there is a bowling alley that we went to quite often. It had an arcade and a pool room as well. It was really fun getting to go with other clusters, or sometimes just in small little groups. We would ride our bikes down there and then we got one free game a day. It was fun to do in the afternoon after dinner and classes. Here is the photos from one afternoon after we went to the movie theaters with one of my cluster mate's girlfriend.
Cynthia<3
Richard, Sean, and Sergiy
Cynthia being Fabulous!!! (Her nickname for the game was Cynthetic even though she is definitely not fake.)
Sergiy and his girlfriend, and Janice third wheeling. Haha, she secretly loves it.
Hey everyone. I just wanted to say I'm sorry I haven't been posting as much I would like to. And sorry that most of the posts I've done lately have been darker than usual (except for the last one.) I've kind of been stuck in the dark lately, and it's been impacting multiple parts of my life, including my blog.
These last few days have been really rough for me. It seems like most days are like this, but that there are patches of good days every once in a while. I honestly feel like my life is just crumbling away right now. It's truly horrible putting on a smile and pretending like it's all okay with my friends and family, and then when I'm alone I'm the complete opposite. I feel so much hurt inside right now though. It like hurts to breathe sometimes, and it hurts to eat. There have been a few times where I have started gagging while trying to eat. I literally am forcing myself to eat these days. And as I sit here in the darkness of my bedroom, I feel the inside of my chest aching. It's not like a heart burn or stomach ache type of ache. It's different. It's like, uncomfortable. It's the feeling of emptiness. Days like today I just feel so empty inside. I feel no hope or enthusiasm or care or motivation. I'm just empty. I've been sitting here for hours today doing absolutely nothing. Just sitting. I'm stressed beyond belief about a physics lab due tomorrow, but I still haven't touched it. I just cant find the power to pull myself out of this darkness and get to work. I'm just so distracted. Days like today I often just zone off. I sit at brunch surrounded by friends, yet I sit there blankly. I get up early to take a shower, and find myself sitting on the bottom of the tub under the hot water, in the dark. I don't understand myself anymore. I hate feeling so lost, and empty inside. The only thing that's been keeping me semi-lively, and that I've been looking forward to is seeing Gillian again. She returning is the only thought that has been keeping me going everyday in school. I need her hugs, and love right now. I have the strongest feeling that I'm just going to fall apart in her arms when I see her. I miss her so much, and she's been there for me more than anyone. Even when she's across the country at college, she still is there listening and being there for me. Anyway, I just really want this week to end. I am so done right now. I just want to be able to sleep with no school worries on my mind. It will be one less thing to stress about. I've been reminding myself to stay strong, so that I can get through the rest of this week. Then there will be thanksgiving break. Thank God.
lovelovelove,
Melissa
P.S. If any of you readers go to my school, please come talk to me. I honestly don't care who you are, or what we even talk about. I just need someone to talk to sometimes. It helps keep me going, and can sometimes make things a little less lonely.
P.S.S. I really hope I don't regret posting this. I always get so nervous when I post such serious, and personal things.
From friends to best friends to... boyfriend and girlfriend!
Today was a crazy day for me! The guy who has been my best friend and the one who I've liked for what seems like forever asked me to be his girlfriend today. I am still in shock. He rode his bike more than 16 miles to my house just to ask me. I was in shock, and of course I said a huge yes. I feel so lucky right now. Today has been so great. It went nothing like I planned, which was supposed to be a day full of homework and studying, and turned into a day I will remember forever. We've been friends for forever, and now we're something even more special.
