All those thoughts. Well, most of them. Yea, the ones that haunt me at night. The ones I finally decided to put on paper. Yea, those. Today, I gave them away. Like she said, sometimes we have to take off some of the weight to take a step forward to something better. The horrible thoughts and feelings. I just gave them to her. I put that little crumpled note in her hand, and right at that moment knew there was no turning back. She tried to get me to read it for her, but I just couldn't. My voice would shake and I knew I wouldn't be able to manage saying those words aloud. So, she read them for me. Hearing my thoughts aloud made me hurt inside. They were my words never spoken of. The things no one knows. My secrets. I'm still in shock that I stepped so far out of my comfort zone. I broke the smile I've been hiding behind, and let some of my true colors show. Slowly she's stripping away my walls and finding that hurting person within them. I feel so naked without them. But I have hope everything will be alright in the end. I also am realizing that I'm not alone and that I can trust again. Yea, I was scared of being hurt all over again, but right now, I am learning to trust in her and myself. Like she said, it takes courage to do what I did, but that it is one step closer.
lovelovelove,
Melissa
Hey! Just know that you are enough. You are so enough, it's unbelievable how enough you are. Oh and you are strong too. You are so strong it's unbelievable how strong you are. I'll be right beside you :)
ReplyDeleteI believe in you so much! I am proud that you told someone and let it out. Sometimes we can't walk alone. And I am always here for you! I care. You are enough. You deserve the world! Never forget how much we care and love you!!!
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