My Hidden Side {Inspired}

I have decided to make a new section on my blog called My Hidden Side. It is a very personal section where I will be able to talk about personal and extremely important topics to me. I recentlyvgot this idea and I felt like this would be a good way for me to talk about things that maybe I've never talked about, and also help get me through the stresses of junior year. I wanted to start this new section with a topic that I've really been wanting to share. It's about two lovely ladies I've been given the chance to meet, and grow close to. They literally inspire me everyday, and because of them I am who I am today. They have helped me a lot, and I look up to them. They're two of my non-celebrity role models, and I love them dearly. Also, before I continue I would like to note that these two wonderful women have never met, but are equally as amazing.

Erika {AKA Erikawwww!}

Erika is an amazing woman. I haven't known her for too long, but it seems like every time we talk it's like we've known each other for a really long time. I met Erika at COSMOS this summer, so that shows how little of time I've known her. I think that the first time we started to grow closer was at a baseball game where we just sat on the grass, laughed, and had a good time. By the end of the summer Erika and I had grown a good friendship. I don't know why but for some odd reason I feel a connection with certain people, and know that I can trust them automatically with anything. She and I were talking two weeks ago, and when she asked if I was excited about starting school I gave her the honest truth that I was not and was actually really scared. I told her about a lot that happened last year, and that I was scared about how junior was going to turn out. I told her how I didnt want a repeat of the previous year. By the time I had said goodnight I was covered in tears. I was kind of shocked that I had responded that way, because we were just FB messaging. She got me crying really hard, but her words were so down to earth and I was able to feel them strongly in my heart. She is seriously one of the sweetest girls I've ever met. Her kind words touched my heart, and comforted me a bunch as I walked in to school on the first day.

Erika is an amazing girl! Just thought I'd say just to make sure you guys heard me the first time. She was one of the girls I grew closest to at UC Davis. The picture above is when we were in San Francisco messing around by trying to skateboard on this weird skateboard trailer thing. Anyway, I obviously love hanging out with her. On the last day of COSMOS I gave her a letter that said thank you for being the best big sister I ever had. I'm so lucky to have met a girl who can make me laugh so hard that it hurts, a girl who listens, a girl who'll always be there when I'm hurt, a girl who can make me cry for all the right reasons, and a girl that doesn't care if I accidentally fell asleep on her for about 3 hours. Haha! Erika has inspired me to not let anything stop me from reaching my goals, and to never give up. She is so inspiring in so many ways. I love you, Erika!

Gillian

Gillian is another brilliant woman. I've known her since freshman year, but I haven't gotten to really know her until a year ago. I texted her randomly one day, even though I barely knew her then, just because I needed some advice. I looked up to her all through freshman year, and felt like I could trust talking to her. Anyway, I was having a tough start of sophomore year feeling overloaded with homework. I, also, didn't have a mom to talk to then, and I felt like I was losing my friends, so I didn't really have anyone to talk to. She helped me a lot that September night, and I ended up writing her a letter saying thanks, and some of the hurt I had been going through. At our orchestra rehearsal, she came up to me and asked me if I was ok. I tried to fight back tears, but she just gave me a long hug... a hug that made me feel a sense of comfort and love that I had been missing. As time went on our relationship grew stronger, and I began to trust her with things that I didn't trust anyone else with. I went to her when I was hurt, lost, confused, or just needing a friend. And she was always there. She was even there at 1 in the morning listening to me while I was in pain, and wishing for an end. She was there by my side when she could see the pain in my eyes. And she was the one there to tell me everything will be all rights, and to shut my eyes for a little while.

Besides Gillian being an amazing woman and making me feel comforted when I needed a friend, she is so much fun to hang around with. I loved getting to drive to Oakland with her and Diane {even though Diane was practically a mute in the back seat since she felt super sick} to go to give the donations and cards to the Oakland Children's Hospital. Just getting to talk, and really be me was exciting. I got to try new things, and talk about topics that we happened to both like and find interesting. Also, even though Gillian graduated last June, she has still been here for me everyday by helping me prepare for the nerve racking auditions. I am so lucky to have become friends with Gillian. She is the one who makes me want to improve myself everyday in orchestra. I continue and work harder everyday in hope that one day I'll be as good as she is. She is such an inspiration to me. She has inspired me to want to help and inspire other girls just like she did for me. I love you, Gillian!

As you can tell, these two women are absolutely incredible. I strive to follow in their footsteps one day, and make them proud. These women make me so thankful to have two that I can be so open with, and can trust with anything. I love you girls! And thank you for being there for me.

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lovelovelove,

Melissa