Trying.

 

It's 2015. A new year. Isn't that kind of crazy to think about? We celebrate another year every time our little earth gets itself all the way around the sun. That's quite an accomplishment if you ask me. 2014 was not easy trip. At least for me it was. I'm trying to think 2015 in a new light though

The last few years have been really hard, but this year I'm gonna put in extra effort to help myself and make sure I am able to accomplish all I hope to in 2015, like graduating, going on more adventures, meeting new people, starting college, turning 18... All it takes is a little effort, a little hope, a little prayer, a little strength.

I'm no longer in full recovery, which is kind of a sad thing when I think about it. Recovery and I aren't doing so great at the moment, unfortunately. But I'm going to try. I'm going to try my best to keep going. It's kind of overwhelming just writing down these words. My heart's starting to race a little. But it's true, I'm going to try. My first step is to try to make myself a happier person. I made little goals that I'm going to try to reach and work on. Some may not be accomplished right away, maybe not even this year, but one day I will reach them.

I'm going to try to:
- Speak up if/when I'm struggling.
- Dress in ways that make me feel confident more often.
- Realize my self worth is more than just numbers (This one's probably gonna take a lot longer than most.)
- Have friends over... Throw tea parties, sleepovers, baking parties, etc.
- Go on bike rides/runs.
- Eat (at least) a meal a day.
- Listen to more happy music.
- Bake cookies and other goodies.
- Understand that my mental health comes before anything else.
- Have one completely lazy day per week.

So, that's some of my goals. Some of them I've been working on since last year, and some are new (like baking cookies!!)

Happy New Year, lovelies:)

lovelovelove,
Melissa