I'm really scared right now. I got woken up by my dad at about midnight, because my mom needed to be rushed the hospital. It's so scary to see her like that. I just want her to be okay. I'm freaking out inside. The most horrible thoughts are running through my head. I keep trying to block them from my head by using distractions. I just watched the most recent The Fosters episode, and that just made things worse. God, I can't sleep. How did my supposedly "Happy" Valentines Day turn in to this? Why did this have to happen? Is she going to be all right? Just an hour before I was watching funny tv shows with my mom, and now she's in the hospital. How did this all happen within an hour? I fall asleep for one hour, and this happens? I just want a hug right now. I want to cry. I already have to deal with so much, and this is just making it all worse. I want someone to be here with me right now. I'm so alone at 3 in the morning with my mind wandering in to dark places, and my anxiety getting worse as the clock ticks by. I need someone here to sit on this couch with me, and to tell me every thing will be all right.
If anyone is reading this, please pray for my mommy. Thank you.
lovelovelove,
Melissa
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